What a LIFE?!

WHAT a LIFE?

Heloo fellasssss,

I guess, its been a long time i didnt posted sumthing overhere.. Kinda busy managing my life to be better than ever..Today, i just woke up around noon..and not yet having my lunch.. woke up, cuci baju, kemas bilik and bath.. hhahha.. really need a gud rest and sleep.. well.. i wanna congrate myself because I already achieved my dreams after five years struggling..  but, still got a long way to go.. and I really thanked God, my family, my friends who always been there for me.. without them, I am nothing..wah!!..

well.. my convocation pictures.. I just kept it.. its just a beginning I guess.. 

nothing else I wanna shared over here. just dropping some short stories about my life lately.. now currently working at my bos company.. company time praktikal dulu.. but if ada rezeki lain, will go for it... and.. my health?- still doing medical check up..heheh.. 

well..thats all.. God bless uols..

Live.Love.Life

Its been a long time I guess I didnt posted something over here.. Its not the matter that I am busy, but making my life to be a healthy person..Huhu.. Its about one month I have been hospitalised due to Kidney Infection and Lung Disease.. Actually, I never thot that I will face all these things up.. But then, I have to accept it.. Once you "caught" with such disease.. u have to take care of yourself.. I dunno which day..but there was a day while I was hospitalised, I felt that I want to give up.. I felt very weak and cannot do anything.. What I want to do is.. baring and sleep jak..sangatla lemah.. But then.. my family and friends keep motivate me to be stronger.. So, I fight for them.. I know they love me..But, thanks Lord.. I am coming.. I feel healthier each day.. I hope I can survive!!!..We do not know when the time is come right?..

Life..

Em.why I upload the photo? Its content something that really come to my mind after my operation. yaa.. I knew this girl.. And she is really kind, always gave me a words that make me wanna live this life.. Before this, I have to confess that, I already fall in love with her, but something had happened between us. She became angry, jump into the conclusion.. and its make me upset.. Deep in my heart, I want her to be my special one, but then after she acted like that, its really ruin everything.. for me..once orang dah macam tu.. so.. it was the turning point stated that I have to forget her.. So..thats it.. Before everything come to the worse..lebih baik lupakan saja. It was the beginning of the relationship before you want to be more serious..okay..

Love..

I already find her.. but then.. Its not going well..I am afraid actually.. Still fobia with my previous relationship..ahh.. orang kata..past is past.. life goes on.. let go everything kan!!!.. but me, still dihantui mcam tu.. Its take time actually.. as Rossa told me, Let go everything.. forgive them,..ya..i will keep the words dear.. To her, I believe, one day God will give u a better person than me.. Thanks for having there for me, thanks for ur msgs..and I still kept it..:)..God bless friend..

Live..

As Rossa told me, Adin.. Wake up and live!!!.. Be strong enough to at least try to make your life better.. Yaa.. I got it dear.. With the condition I have, I still need some rest and gain energy to make it better.. I hope my health is getting better.. Now I have to consumed some medicine, going for medical check-up, doing theraphy.. After the convocation and by the next year, I hope everything will going well..

Myself..

My weight now is 67kgs with the height of 178cm.. I lose 10kgs.. Now I have to gain weight.. semua seluar dah longgar and nampak sgt perubahan.. okay..next week got interview at Sibu..luckily my elder brother got rumah here, so I can rest here and tak payah balik Mukah for a while.. The pain is still inside and I have to take care of myself..

By the way..

I have to stop over here.. I need a rest.. ho ho ho..bosannnya.. nak main futsal rasanya...

A millions of thanks..

To my family, papa n mama, Bro Eking, Sis Elissa, Bro Kajan and Lil Sis Ririn..I love u so much..

To her.. thanks for ur msgs.. I appreciate it.. Thanks for making my life beautiful.Knowing u was the best things in my life..

To my friends.. Rossa- Thanks for everything..:)

-Take one step at the time and keep moving forward.

I want you

Sometimes its really hard to let you go from my life and heart.. I dunno why you always appear in my mind.. I have to denied it actually because I dun want to hurt you..You know what, that is why, I rarely sms u or even give u a called.. Maybe one day you will realised, we are not meant for each other.. 

To know u is the best things that I ever had. although we have not meet yet, but if we meet in facebook.. we chat and share everything.. Received ur sms yesterday.. "its all about u" as u said.. but I have to denied it.. I dun have any strength to make this relationship more meaningful to us because I strongly believed that you deserve better than me.. I want you actually, but I refused to do it, because I  am afraid to lose someone and hurt you.. I know, past is past, letting go is important.and it easy to say it but its hard to do.. Now, I dun ever give my heart a space for anyone..Seriously, I tried to give a space in my heart for you, but then, I refused to do so.. Maybe I am not ready..

By the meantime, I hope you will find someone that will love you.. To be honest, I love you... 

As u said, " Friend is always a friend".. Thank you friend..

p/s : I promised myself that when its was over, I wouldnt look back, but I am here unable to go through all of this..As I said, Past is past, Life is short and appreciate everything in ur life..

23rd Birthday

23rd Birthday!!!.. Its my birthday and I can't believe it I am 23th.. feel that still 17th of ages.. haha!!.. Celebrating my 23th birthday at home with my mama, papa, bro eking, Evenie, Anne, and Chris.. Thanks for having there for me.. thanks for the cake and all of ur wishes.. 

Its turn 12.00 am... 13th July.. its my birthday.. the first sms i received was from her.. it was before 12.00am.. Whoaa.. I thot that she forget my birthday.. She sent a short msg for me.. 

 Dear Adin,

Happy birthday.. Have a blast birthday..

a lil words have to say here.. I am sorry if I hurt ur feelings,

I miss you..

God bless and guide you always..

Lots of love ..Me..

Actually I dun put too much hope on that.. but thanks for remembering my birthday.. yeay.. She sang a song.. a birthday song and my fav song "I miss You" using a guitar.. thanks for that baby.. It was so sweet and I will remembered. Thanks for the sweetness.. We are gud friend..:)

Lingering in my mind.. while i posted my appreciation to those who wished me.. I dunno why SHE acted emo .. To be honest with u.. I dun like actually. Acted emo, childish and its really annoying me.. Talking nonsense things.. Wei.. Wake up!!!.. Past is past.. Life goes on.. Life is short and u have to appreciate the tiny things and everything in ur life.. but its sokay.. Have a gud day fren..

A millions of thanks to.. :

" Me" for the songs..

Bro eking.. for the gift..

Papa and mama .. for the love..

Ririn, Kajan and Elisa .. for ur prayed ..

Two lil cutest .. for ur smiles..

And friends .. for ur wishes..

One breathe..

Thanks God for the breathe today.. Once again I can see ur love inside me.. 

Setelah bertapa selama 3 hari di hospital.. I hate that place actually.. keluar dari hosp. merupakan saat yang paling gembira.. Thanks to my brother Eking and mama n papa yang jaga.. Without them I am hardly to survive.. now.. I still can feel the pain inside.. its killing me inside!!.. but.. I have to be stronger to fight them.. Luckily, it still in the early stage..huhu.. dun woryy.. I will be fine..

Cuma skrg masih kat rumah..rehat-rehat.. haritu kerja sampai tak jaga diri.. maybe sebab itular keadaan menjadi seperti itu.. As my doctor said, jangan kerja terlalu kuat..huhuhu.. So.. i need a rest.. 

i dunno what shud i write here... a lil words from me.. 

John Denver - Leaving on a Jet Plane

A song for today..
The last day I am here..
Tak sangka masa berlalu dengan pantas,
Banyak kenangan, suka dan duka berada di Uni..
Segala bantuan dan pertolongan anda semua akan dikenang selalu,
Semoga berjumpa di hari lain..

4 tahun berada di alam Uni,
mematangkan lagi dan mengenali kehidupan sebenar,
If i could turn back the time, sya masih nak jadi pelajar first semester..
Rindu akan saat itu..
Packing my bags already..
Gonna drive from Skudai to KL with the others..

A lil bit sad in my heart to leave this place..
Di sini saya kenal sahabat2 sejati sya- Marvin, Raymond, Randy and Fezal,
Kami bersama-sama tak kira susah dan senang..
There are my true friends,
Saya kenal erti persahabatan, pengorbanan, kesabaran, kesusahan dan kesenangan,
mujur dapat menghadapi dengan berkat dari Tuhan..

I was lost 2 years ago,
but thanks God for saving my life and give me another chance,
4 years.. beautiful memories i have here..

Going back home!!!
I am counting the days..
The day is come,
I am leaving on the jet plane,
dunno when I will be back again
Oh babe, I have to go..

cheersss...Location-Still in Skudai, gonna have a long journey after this..
See u oll at Sarawak!!!

Sometimes?

Gud Morning.. Hola como estas!!!!... Muy bien? muy mar?.. 

Gonna post sumthing about me myself and I.. just woke up early in the morning.. cannot sleep for the whole night..mybe just because i took a cup of Nescafe plus watching the euro match this morning..well when my friend and i busy talking those things.. one thing that across my mind is.. "I am deserve better".. last night, she is messaging me..here are sum msg between me and her:

Her : Hye dear..how are u?

Me : fine always.. still breathe until now.. Thanks God for that..

Her : I am fine, btw.. I am so soryy bout the past..and i hope u will find someone better than me..

Me : sokay..past is past..btw, when will u get married?

Her : Maybe, end of this year.. pls come?

Me : will see later..:)

Her : I  wish u to come dear.

Me : @$##$##@@!$$

Her: ??????????????????????????

Me : nothing..ok..God bless!!1

Her: Sorry..

and the last message from her is SORRY...

and am not replying it at all.. Sorry means nothing once they are broken as told rosa to me..

Its had been almost 2 years i broke up with her.and still i dun find someone..hihih..its not because i can't let her go..its just because i need to give myself a "me" time.. wait wait..love is around.. i know God will give me a better person.. Sumtimes we need to forget people from our past, they just dont belong to our future.. absolutely right.. but deep in my heart, I still missed her.. not LOVE her anymore.. She's just belong to someone else.. 

I have to admit that, deep in my heart, I was crying for that. old stories.. Not for now anymore.. Cheer up!!.. As I said, dun waste ur tears for someone that not worth for it..I am not hoping for someone to come in my life, but I just let it be.. When the right time is come.. There she is!!!.. Maybe She? I dunno.. God will give me the answer.. Just left it to God..

As Marvin told me,

Learn to let go, and u will feel free in urself..You deserve better!!!.. Fuck off that bitch.. Hahaha.. Marvin kinda angry actually, I knw he felt the same as me.. Rasanya tiba2 saja kami berdua bercakap pasal hal ini. then Si Raymond datang..talking for the same things.. Hye girls, guys also talk about their relationship okay!..haha.. Raymond also experienced the same things.. He told me," Adin, people come and go, But God always stay with us"...terharu gak terdengar si Raymond berkata-kata.. 

bah.. ok..gotta have a nice sleep after this..daaaa

Di suatu petang

Di suatu petang,

Kala fikiran sedang ligat berfikir,
Tatkala itu melayan fikiran yang enak kiranya,
Bertemankan angin,
Sambil melihat ke hadapan,
Alangkah indah ciptaan Tuhan,
Andai semua ciptaan Tuhan indah,
Mengapa masih ada kerakusan dalam diri manusia?
Mengapa masih ketidakpuasan hati terjadi?

Mungkin itu sebabnya kelompangan berlaku,
Tatkala manusia diulit mimpi magis,
Aku pula bagaimana?
Aku sendiri sedang belajar mengenali diri,
Mengenali diri sebagai insan yang hanya melihat dan berfikir mahupun bertindak,
Kadangkala aku hampir tidak mengenali diri,
Ahh.. itu suatu ketika dahulu,
Aku kini sudah berubah,
Bila aku fikir balik, merenung kembali kisah yang aku anggap silam,
Saat itu fikiran masih cetek,
Fikiran tidak berkembang,
Namun, akhirnya berubah kerana dia,
Terima kasih awak!!!

Awak,
Kerana awak saya berubah
Kerana awak saya mampu berdiri di sini,
Kerana awak saya masih bernafas pada udara yang sama, berpijak pada tanah yang sama,
Kerana awak saya mengenali apa itu kasih dan sayang,
Kerana awak saya tahu segala-galanya,
Kerana awak saya belajar untuk menghargai apa yang ada,
Kerana awak saya berdiri di atas kaki sendiri,
Maafkan aku, sebab kebodohan itu,

Aku,
Hanya manusia yang sering melakukan kesilapan,
Awak,
awak akan tetap menjadi orang yang terindah yang pernah aku kenal..
Awak,
Terima kasih untuk segalanya...

Sang Pencipta,
Terima kasih kerana kasih dan sayangmu,
Terima kasih di atas segalanya,
Tanpamu,hidup aku tidak bermakna,
Saat badai menerpa, saat itu engkau menyelamatkan aku.
Terima kasih!!!


Awak-awak,
- Dad, Mumy, Eking, Elisa, Ririn and Kajan-

Early in The Morning

The funny pic.. its defined me well..hahah
Hari ni terbangun pukul 10..sebab my sister Ririn kol.. kacau tido yang indah juga budak ni..

Convos with her :

Ririn : oii.. pakat ihh..Eking mulik time mo mulik lebuk..
Me : Pakat lah ih.. betijo.. bak exam..[actually I am not]haha... Eking mulik no?
Ririn : Mulik next week..
Me : Yes... Kajan cuti kan?
Ririn : Yuk la..cuti next week..time mo nuan di lebuk..
Me: Yes..nice..its good to hear that..btw..dun b so jealous to see us gather here..haha
Ririn: ok fine.. ticket mo check.. nuan dlm email infos..
Me : ok syg.. later i check..wanna sleep..
Ririn : u still sleeping..wake up!!..i tell mom if u are not..
Me : whatever!!!..btw..thanks syg..ingtkan abg ni.nnti mulik..melay Famous Amos ..hehe..
Ririn: ok..gud..bye..
Me : Bye!!!.

a few of my convos with my lil sis.. Tau pon kol aku.. tapi mata masih mengantok..then.. i took my bath.. and after that..continued my sleeping..sya da masalah bangun-bangun awal pagi ni.. kalau terbangun pukul 7.nasibla tu.haha..

-ok..nak continued lagi..well gotta update some infos
-Deep in my heart, i missed my family..:)

Cerita semalam

comel kan?

 yang ni antara gmbar yang sya sempat ambil ketika kami berlima p Melaka..

yang ni depan Church tu..bangunan merah... terlupa nak ambil gmbr kat sni.. sebab sya bukan orang yang suka bergambar..hihi

Di Memorial Park Labuan..selepas sehari tamat LI..

time outing dengan senior-senior dulu

muka skema masa first year..

Update or not?..
update jak..saja jak..bosan harini.. semalam pergi outing dengan member-member..
sebab outing : bosan dalam bilik, nak p main futsal kat court-penuh plak, nak p main tennis-tali racket putus, so..last-last..kita p makan-makan..jalan-jalan..main bowling, main snooker, lepak di mana-mana..

uihh.. tak sangka habis jugak pengajian di sini, masih ingat first time masuk.. dengan neg tie nya,kasut yang sudah digilap, baju kemeja.. memang skema habis.. time tu nasib baik sahabat dari sama matrik pun sama gak masuk sini.. Si Marvin..haha..i knw him since the first day at matric.. then time tu kta daftar sama-sama.. kebtulan jugak dapat Kolej yang sama.. ok..time makan tu.. terjumpa pulak si Raymond.. mula-mula memang syak ni confirm budak sabah sarawak..sebab dengar style dia cakap.. lepas tu Marvin terus tegur si raymond..memang confirm sudah dari Sabah.. so.. dari saat itu, kami berkawan.. malam lepas orientasi.. time on the way balik bilik..terdengar ada 2 orang yang cakap bahasa Melayu Sarawak.. then sya terus p jumpa.. terjumpa lagi Si Randy dan Si Pejal.. dari saat itu juga..kami terus berkawan walaupun tak sama faculty..

so..apa-apa kerja, kalau beli barang, p jalan memang kami 5 yang p.. nasib baik da kawan-kawan dari Sabah n Sarawak kat sini.. mula-mula fikir memang rasa takut, tak best..tapi akhirnya dah jumpa member2 ni.. baru senang hati.. masih juga saya ingat..peristiwa tak dapat dilupakan.. kami berlima kena tangkap sebab makan..masa tu orang tengah berpuasa.. so kami makanla di suatu kedai tak jauh dari kampus.. sedang sedap makan-makan.. tiba2 datang si pihak berkuasa..adeh deh..kena soal siasat lagi..sampaikan dikatakan kami menipu.. lepas tu. diaorang siap bagi ceramah..memang lucu habis..sebab mula-mula tu mmg kami tak perkenalkan diri kami..just kami biarkan la..lepas selesai encik tu berceramah..barulah si Randy bercakap and perkenalkan diri.. memang malu habis lah encik tu..sebab muka-muka kami ni memang mcm muka diorang jugak.. so kalau time puasa tu, memang slalu kena sound sebab tak puasa..bukan apa ..sebab kita memang tak pon..hehe

so..banyak juga cerita-cerita n pengalaman bersama tak dapat dilupakan..semalam kami lepak sampai pagi lah.. bercerita.. lepak..tak sangka memang tamat pengajian di sini..semua tu memang tak dapat dilupakan dari saat kaki menjejak ke kampus sehingga sekarang.. dari Sabah, Sarawak sehingga ke Kelantan sudah kami jejaki..setiap cuti sem..pasti ada program.. well i have to admit that, I will miss those moments here..sob sob sob..hahahah..

so.. kaitan dengan si kucing ni? haritu saya lihat gambar ni kat fb kawan,.sempoi gak kucing ni..memang comel.. harini sya post kat fb kawan ni..dia sedih..so saya try to comfort her..sya post kat wall dia..hahah..

- cerita semalam, akan saya ingat smpai bila-bila..to all my bestie.. Marvin, Raymond, Randy and Pezal..gonna miss all of u..:) all those pictures got some memories.. I will missed it..

update or not?

Petang indah!!..


Duduk sendiri..melayan jiwa yang kosong..
sudah penah exam..
ketika aku masuk ke dewan exam..
hati berdebar tidak keruan..
nak kata belajar.. belajar juga..nak kata tak belajar..tak juga..
dalam perjalanan masuk ke dewan exam..aku disertai oleh dua orang perempuan..
wah..kiranya kacak dua2..bak kata orang sarawak..
saja jak suka tengok..bukan nak menengok..tetapi tertengok..


kaitan dengan gmbar di atas?
so cute..terjumpa dalam facebook kawan..
i miss my dog..
27 nnti kepulangan ke negeri tercinta..
sekrang ni dah juga ada yang packing..
last semester.. maybe gonna miss all the moments here..


lama tak update blog..tetiba jak layout bertukar.. ni kerja si adik aku..
bagusla.. lagipun malas jugak nak tukar layout..
so.. maybe i just write sumthing here.. fulfill my time..

I am Tuesday People

I dunno what to do today... Still lazy... wawaa. penyakit malas dtang kembali..

then.. i kemas my table and book shelf and found this book.. I forget one thing.. When did i bought this book?

Just to fill my free time. i took out the book and read it.. and it was the thinnest book on my shelf, and I was feeling lazy..but i gave a chance for myself to read it..

Actually one of my friend suggested me to read this book.. that day.. i went to Popular Delta Mall Sibu..and i bought it there.. she told me. the book is very good.. its taught us about life..

the stories goes when the professor morrie met his ex-student Mitch and they always met up on Tuesday.. so they were Tuesday People..

After finish reading the book I can conclude it.. it was owesome.. yeahh.. its really sad to hear that when someone that closed to u became helpless and they shared everything about life before they 'departure'.. for me..it was a good book.. and i will try to looking forward for the another book.. 


One of my favourite quotes here is : 


Sometimes u cannot believe what u see, u have to believe what u feel. and if u are ever going to have other people trust u, u must feel that u can trust them too- even when u are in a dark, even when u are falling..

The day had past

I am so tired today..

Wanna rest and sleep all day long..

But i can't.. maybe we felt very tired and can't sleep..

While thinking of my LI.. i got sum ideas.. hopefully my LI will finish by the end of this month..


Tired.. wawawaw.. kalau di rumah..confirm sudah tido.. di sini.. lom agik. lambat sa mok tdo...

aku nak balik rumah!!.. i hope my bro will book for me a ticket for cuti sem ni..

I dunno what shud i write in this blog.. as i said.. am not into blog, fb, and others social networking..

I prefer to play games whether it is outdoor and indoor..

Tapi saja jak ngan org molah blog..


new story.. she's msg-ing me.. wawa.. my handphone dah ok.. well.. actually i miss her a lot.. but then.. try to hide that feelings.. hahaha..

well.. tomorrow got a class.. the fourth week.. oww.. 10 more weeks left.. !!.. mampukah aku???

My life here

I went back to my hometown last semester.. and really enjoyed my holidays.. after a few months struggle..[ i guess].hahaha. well this photo was taken on the day i arrived at Mukah.. photo taken by my bro. Kajan.. with me is Sean.. he's Melanau.. and I am Kenyah..haha.. mix actually.. 

Its been long time we not meet each other.. He's just came back from Aussie.. 

Gathering time.. all day long.. lama dah tak jumpa member2.. 

this is my tyco..haha.. my bestfriend..pezal.... 

well.. i guess i just shared a lil bit bout my life here..well maybe we can meet..haha.. bah ok..

Me gusta!

Me gusta:..


my first entry for this blog.. aye aye..
am not that  into blogger.. facebook.. twitter and others social networking.. but then.. i saw my friend busying with their blog.. so i put my interest to create this blog.. just wanna share something that i knw.. well.. they might say.. sharing is caring.. maybe?


well.. still student and this is my last semester here after struggling about 6 years in these field.. i really passionate bout my career and job.. after finish my study.. gonna find a job.. maybe quite ambitious.. but.. i just left it to God.. He knows well..


i came from a big family ..consisted, my lovely parent.. my gentle bro-s, my sweet sisters.. i love them so much.. and only them knw what i want..haha..


bout myself.. seriously.. i am complicated and sumtimes annoying..haha.. supposed to be..
but.. i am fun, quiet sumtimes, and so on..


okay.. i think it shud be like this.. gonna updated some info here.. bah..okla.. gtg now..