I want you

Sometimes its really hard to let you go from my life and heart.. I dunno why you always appear in my mind.. I have to denied it actually because I dun want to hurt you..You know what, that is why, I rarely sms u or even give u a called.. Maybe one day you will realised, we are not meant for each other.. 

To know u is the best things that I ever had. although we have not meet yet, but if we meet in facebook.. we chat and share everything.. Received ur sms yesterday.. "its all about u" as u said.. but I have to denied it.. I dun have any strength to make this relationship more meaningful to us because I strongly believed that you deserve better than me.. I want you actually, but I refused to do it, because I  am afraid to lose someone and hurt you.. I know, past is past, letting go is important.and it easy to say it but its hard to do.. Now, I dun ever give my heart a space for anyone..Seriously, I tried to give a space in my heart for you, but then, I refused to do so.. Maybe I am not ready..

By the meantime, I hope you will find someone that will love you.. To be honest, I love you... 

As u said, " Friend is always a friend".. Thank you friend..

p/s : I promised myself that when its was over, I wouldnt look back, but I am here unable to go through all of this..As I said, Past is past, Life is short and appreciate everything in ur life..