I want you

Sometimes its really hard to let you go from my life and heart.. I dunno why you always appear in my mind.. I have to denied it actually because I dun want to hurt you..You know what, that is why, I rarely sms u or even give u a called.. Maybe one day you will realised, we are not meant for each other.. 

To know u is the best things that I ever had. although we have not meet yet, but if we meet in facebook.. we chat and share everything.. Received ur sms yesterday.. "its all about u" as u said.. but I have to denied it.. I dun have any strength to make this relationship more meaningful to us because I strongly believed that you deserve better than me.. I want you actually, but I refused to do it, because I  am afraid to lose someone and hurt you.. I know, past is past, letting go is important.and it easy to say it but its hard to do.. Now, I dun ever give my heart a space for anyone..Seriously, I tried to give a space in my heart for you, but then, I refused to do so.. Maybe I am not ready..

By the meantime, I hope you will find someone that will love you.. To be honest, I love you... 

As u said, " Friend is always a friend".. Thank you friend..

p/s : I promised myself that when its was over, I wouldnt look back, but I am here unable to go through all of this..As I said, Past is past, Life is short and appreciate everything in ur life..

23rd Birthday

23rd Birthday!!!.. Its my birthday and I can't believe it I am 23th.. feel that still 17th of ages.. haha!!.. Celebrating my 23th birthday at home with my mama, papa, bro eking, Evenie, Anne, and Chris.. Thanks for having there for me.. thanks for the cake and all of ur wishes.. 

Its turn 12.00 am... 13th July.. its my birthday.. the first sms i received was from her.. it was before 12.00am.. Whoaa.. I thot that she forget my birthday.. She sent a short msg for me.. 

 Dear Adin,

Happy birthday.. Have a blast birthday..

a lil words have to say here.. I am sorry if I hurt ur feelings,

I miss you..

God bless and guide you always..

Lots of love ..Me..

Actually I dun put too much hope on that.. but thanks for remembering my birthday.. yeay.. She sang a song.. a birthday song and my fav song "I miss You" using a guitar.. thanks for that baby.. It was so sweet and I will remembered. Thanks for the sweetness.. We are gud friend..:)

Lingering in my mind.. while i posted my appreciation to those who wished me.. I dunno why SHE acted emo .. To be honest with u.. I dun like actually. Acted emo, childish and its really annoying me.. Talking nonsense things.. Wei.. Wake up!!!.. Past is past.. Life goes on.. Life is short and u have to appreciate the tiny things and everything in ur life.. but its sokay.. Have a gud day fren..

A millions of thanks to.. :

" Me" for the songs..

Bro eking.. for the gift..

Papa and mama .. for the love..

Ririn, Kajan and Elisa .. for ur prayed ..

Two lil cutest .. for ur smiles..

And friends .. for ur wishes..

One breathe..

Thanks God for the breathe today.. Once again I can see ur love inside me.. 

Setelah bertapa selama 3 hari di hospital.. I hate that place actually.. keluar dari hosp. merupakan saat yang paling gembira.. Thanks to my brother Eking and mama n papa yang jaga.. Without them I am hardly to survive.. now.. I still can feel the pain inside.. its killing me inside!!.. but.. I have to be stronger to fight them.. Luckily, it still in the early stage..huhu.. dun woryy.. I will be fine..

Cuma skrg masih kat rumah..rehat-rehat.. haritu kerja sampai tak jaga diri.. maybe sebab itular keadaan menjadi seperti itu.. As my doctor said, jangan kerja terlalu kuat..huhuhu.. So.. i need a rest.. 

i dunno what shud i write here... a lil words from me..